The future and stuff

My day revolved around pessimistic things and beings. I made bad decisions and they all caught up with me in one day. Sometimes, you just need to take.it.easy.

No change

Change is good, but not when it hurts you. I don't want fall to come for the obvious reasons. Am I wrong to be excited to leave this WRETCHED place and then I find happiness, true happiness and then i revaluate my excitement to go? I think the saying is true, that love makes you do things you normally would not do. But what is the most powerful force on Earth? Love or Success?
To answer you, it's love. Love is universal, or so i believe. success is only a reason to say to others they've failed. Personally love is the path I should take, but this cancerous species crawling on a beautiful planet is holding me back. They'll tell you this. They'll tell you that, but what is real and what is fake? How do i decipher what to believe?  There is no use complaining on the matter, for I have no control over it.

DID YOU HEAR THAT??! NO CONTROL, over my life. MYLIFE!  I guess that's reality and you and I must face it.  Love is man's reality- Carlos Santana's album love,devotion,surrender. So now we put what I just said together. if I have to face my reality, but love is my reality, than does that mean I'm in separate realities? 2 different realities that have been tangled into a knot! BAHA! This seems impossible. There is no way I live in 2 separate realities, says the close minded fool. But I do, one of love and one of confusion, perhaps. Maybe not confusion...but normality. Which means normality is confusing to me, says my subconscience.  Now im onto a separate debate. back to love.  SO, one reality of love for a girl and one of normality, meaning a life other than love for another human. IF im a strong enough person, maybe i can keep them tangled together. Consider looking at it from a rope's perspective. I have 2 short ropes. and 1 tall mountain. I need to combine these ropes to get to the top. I tie them together, right? yes. However, that doesn't guarantee my safety of getting to the top. If im strong enough, i can make sure that i get to the top safely. Same situation here. 2 realities. 1 life.

FUCK I love her. FUCK I love my life. I can't even make the decision anymore which one I want to fuck up. It's love. I'm going to fuck it up. It kills me everyday to think that soon, I won't hold her anymore. Tightly. Passionately. Marcos told me, clara is his reality and he lives for clara. that opened my mind. Do I want to live for Julia? I did it, name drop. Do i want to risk my sanity staying in love with her? frankly yes, because im already insane. Why not put myself through 1 more insane event? Like LSD. It's insane, it's a trip. Love. It's insane, it's a trip. A journey. I love LSD and I can compare love to it. Which seems material, but at least I dont drop drugs and lose my head and my mind. I gain more mind. I open doors to perception. Alter my conscious. Being able to think differently than others. BUT, I can compare them. LSD and love. Both grand, but love prevails.

Love always prevails.

Its about time people stop and realize who the real harms to society are and take care of them on the highest priority. Stop the peaceful and encourage the reckless. I suppose thats what creates a "normal", "civil" person, recklessness?

Stress and Hate

2 things I'm familiar with. Ease your mind. Don't worry. Hakuna Matata

Category

Why should we categorize people? People are people. Everything is a phase so why must we categorize. Let us all unite in peace, love and harmony. Ohh wait, or is that to hipster? well then fuck them all! wait, thats scene... Hmmm... Well then what can I say without being placed in a group.



NOTHING.

Things on this universe:

I recently discovered the wonders of the cosmos. They are like nothing you have ever heard of before. Something so complex that no one can comprehend it. Space and Time will lead us there, into the cosmos. THrough wormholes and ejected into another universe, galaxy, cluster, planet. Where will it take us? Who will be the first man to do it? Will he even remember the experience? Challenged by such complex thoughts, the universe never defeats to amaze me. Even the mere sight of Jupiter and her moons amazes me. To think that Jupiter is 20 times the earths size, and then compare it to our galaxy and nebulas. Astonishing.  


Space
TIme

Appreciation

Today i had a pretty shitty day, things didn't go as "planned", but i managed to stay alive. I realized after today that people don't appreciate our world and what we have nearly as much as they did a while ago. People in the early 1900's had morals and innocence was key. Today we abuse and attack. Our country of meaning, has turned into a country of disappointment. The people I go to school with have no respect for anything and "don't give a fuck". It's all about partying and getting fucked up, where as people my age in the 20's main focus was to acquire a solid education. They had goals and dreams, now junior college is perfectly fine for some kids. Then what? what's next? Do you have a plan? Whether your plan is to move somewhere with $0 in your pocket, at least you have some sort of dream to try and aspire to. I go to school everyday and appreciate what an awesome opportunity I have at my school, I mean, it's a strictly film school designated for film production education, in HIGH-SCHOOL! That's is an awesome opportunity. Others just come to my school and fuck around and bullshit through film classes and strive for socializing. Appreciate what you're given! Appreciate the world we live in! I advise anyone who reads this to go outside every morning and look up into the sky and say, "damn, I live in a beautiful world." I do, i look at the morning sky and appreciate every second of it, regardless of where I'm headed. If you appreciate things, you're mental stability will increase, I promise.

Toodles